Greetings of the day !
Okay. That's enough.
1. I got into a college (details in my social media handles). Yes, I did. Somehow (*cries within*). So one fine day just stepping into college, without knowing what to expect, and then just staying in that environment all alone wasn't the easiest thing to do for me. I admit that I've always been kind of hard to change, but this wasn't a change for a fling: this was a complete shift, a makeover ! The first few days went by with me being excessively overwhelmed and still in awe of how sudden everything was feeling. I felt lost, my bubble of comfort had been pricked without a real warning. I found myself in deep waters, barely holding myself. I completely lost track of the things that were making me happy a few days ago, and spent days aimlessly, not doing anything. Book blogs ? Felt miles away. Out of reach. And I was not prepared to reach out and grasp it anyway.
2. Academics. Such a disaster. College courses were not as demanding as the stuff I had done prior to college, but it was entirely new ! Modifying my own old model of studies to suit the weird college type courses was tiring, freckled with frustration and in all, a very exhausting ordeal. I won't say I was performing terrible, but I was taking too much time for simple stuff, and behaving extremely sluggish and inefficient. Watching YouTube without any purpose, and listening to songs on repeat felt more easy and natural at those times, and I never got to haul this neglected blog up again and devote time to it. I was struggling to assign priorities to various issues, and this blog, or any creative writing in general, had sunk deep down.
3. People around me. I realized in a flash that I was living in a very customized, warm, fluffy zone back home, with lovely friends and family. But here, my opinions and nature clicked with very few people, and me being me, wasn't ready to change even a bit to suit the surrounding's need. Bottom line, I suffered. I felt lonely and blinded. Any creativity refused to come out of me, when I was in that kind of state. I was desperately homesick. I made friends, but seeing them gradually beginning to like the atmosphere in college when I was struggling with even the basic things, made me sad and fussy.
There were many more reasons, some of which will surely overlap if I keep talking about it all. I'm happy that most of these problems have whooshed past, and new problems have come up. I'm also happy that even though my life is no way near perfect at this current stage, I still felt like reviving this passion of mine. I want to pick up where I left off, and also start afresh in a way. So gear up, new posts are coming up ! I've also planned many new changes to this blog, and cannot wait to put them to use !
Excited ?
A lot has been going on in my own life and personal space in the past few months, and I thought it would be nice (and revealing) of me to share some quick life updates( at least, that's what the fancy bloggers and content creators call it, right ?) I can guess that these updates (no one likes updates every week, do they) of this slice of my own bland life might not be that interesting, but trust me (please do) this is real. And the reason I'm doing this is because (mostly because all fancy content creators do this ^_^ ) I really don't want to barge into this business again, without a soft, sad explanation to depress you and make you forgive me.
Lets begin.
Thankfully, right now I have a bunch of great friends and superb company (:
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